Misgivings

We're almost ten years together
And you're more complacent than ever.
But little by little I am losing that fire
Because I have other things that I desire.

Why must I be careful from now on upon treading
Along the path to the person whom I was fine loving?
Is it because it is no longer the same all these years
For there are too many shed tears?

Despite it all I would not be here if it was not for my feelings.
But now I am uncertain of our future, drowning in misgivings.
How long must I keep being adrift in this empty sea of waiting?
Are my prayers throughout the years all for nothing?

My hope is a flame in the midst of a snowy storm.
My heart is shattering from its normal form.
My God, what happened to the plans you have for me?
I need some assurance and comfort for my destiny.

I am trying my best not to break.
Being happy is absolutely fake.
I know I shouldn't worry about my tomorrow,
But I can't help it since I am constricted by sorrow.

Fighting and more endless arguments,
It seems we are completely splintered fragments
Of our former selves, which were in better days.
Are we best to go on our separate ways?

The pain of these thoughts are making me sick.
Losing everything will turn me weak.
My God, I have no one else to turn to.
Help my earnest prayers to come true.


Copyright Star Ashley Cruz
Feb 16 2019