God's revelation to me

 Luke 12:15

Then he said, "Beware! Don't be greedy for what you don't have. Real life is not measured by how much we own.

- My thoughts were not aligned to God's will and ways. I desire so much that I started to hate my life because I'm not able to obtain the wealth I want. I wanted objects and materials that I think would make me happy. Even though I know the truth that these things are all evanescent and meaningless.

Luke 12:21

Yes, a person is a fool to store up earthly wealth but not have a rich relationship with God.

- I am losing sight of what a real treasure looks like: a relationship with God! My thoughts are jeopardizing my relationship with God and even with other people! I've become a fool! :( I'm so frustrated to have earthly wealth and become envious of others and angry at my parents for not providing and catering for my satisfaction. They did not meet my standards and I thought of hating and despising them for my miserable life.

Luke 12:28

And if God cares so wonderfully for flowers that are here today and gone tomorrow, won't he surely care for you? You have so little faith!

- I have so little faith!? In spite of everything that God has done for me, I am not able to trust him completely! Why?! His faithfulness has always been obvious, yet I remain oblivious and still ask for more than I can actually handle. What's even worse is that I know about this, yet I keep going back to my erroneous ways.

Prayer:

Help me oh Lord to put my trust and faith in you alone. Help me to see and be grateful for all the things you do for me. Magnify my gratitude and turn it into a praise for you. I pray that it will produce a Christlike character in me. Help me to honor you. Grant me a pure and clean heart so that my thoughts and words lead others to you, in Jesus' name we pray, Amen.

Journal entry of May 13, 2017